Someone call the media. I think I’ve found the mother load. https://naturistchurch.blogspot.com/ If presentation mode can be an indicator of mental disorder, these people can be committed before reading a single word. What monster decided that the proper way to deploy a website is: * A Single Blogspot page With links to several mega.nz collections of videos, books, audiobooks, etc. I don’t think I’ve seen this particular combination of beliefs in one place before, but there are a lot of statements and ideas that will take some unpacking to separate the wheat from the chaff here: Obviously, naturism/nudism is a primary component. It’s in the title. Anti-psychiatry is a common theme in the video collections. Purity (needs unpacking) Narcissism Demons Psychotropic drugs cause irreversible damage to various organs in the body, especially the brain, mainly damaging the protection of the brain from the strongest influence of demons. For example, an average person can show 60% of their real character, but the other 40% of their apparent personality is actually composed of the influence of a total 20% of demons and another 20% of angels.

If you’re ever in the mood for a real filth and depravity kink, search for “Perverse Family” in the places where you search for random things. It’s not my kink, but maybe it’s yours.

So I happened upon a copy of Hackergeist: Electronic Grimoire of Cybersigils of the Cthulhu Mythos and it opened up a new line of pursuit. As if the book itself isn’t interesting enough as a launch point, it led me to fucc.it, the website of the First United Church of Cthulhu, a nonprofit where you can ordain yourself and produce a letter of good standing for yourself, for whatever you wish to do that for. Go there. Do all the things.

Where are you in time and space? Where are you in your personal evolution? Where are you in your understanding of the reality you live in? What signposts can you see around you? Behind you? Ahead of you? I found this document in a roundabout manner, and it triggered these thoughts and awarenesses in me. And now I need a stiff drink. http://illuminati-news.com/ceremonial-magick.htm

I happened upon Introduction to Orgone, 2004 Jon Logan, a few days ago. It’s more information than I’ve ever seen in one place about orgone, including the hows and whys. But specifically this document also includes a bunch of recipes for making your own by suspending metal powder and whatnot in resin. I wonder if these are the recipes used by the plethora of orgonite trinket sellers on Ebay and Etsy.

Despite the fact that I’m not incarcerated, and probably don’t know anyone who’s currently incarcerated, much less someone with an interest in demonolatry who is currently incarcerated, I found this next document thought-provoking and potentially useful. It’s called: Scales of Ma’at: A Guide for the Incarcerated. It was published by S. Connolly eight years ago and at least at one point was offered as a free PDF. The files listed on demonolatry.org are mostly broken links at this point, so I don’t know whether that’s being maintained at all. In any case, the document outlines how one can go about practicing demonolatry in a highly restrictive environment with limited props and accessories, and not much freedom to modify one’s surroundings to create an optimal environment for the type of work involved. Add to that the potential danger one might face in merely exercising one’s freedom of religion in public, depending on the gestalt of one’s surroundings and the potential stigma associated with the religion in which they choose to participate, and it’s easy to see how this document can be surprisingly helpful, potentially extending far beyond demonolatry. First there are the fairly predictable yet practical discussions. When one can’t use props, one must improvise. There are practical physical improvisations, and then there are the improvisations you can make in your mind. In addition, several specific workings are provided which are specifically useful for those enjoying the hospitality of the criminal justice system. Whereas practitioners on the outside might lean in the majority toward the acquisition of love or money, those inside might need assistance in resolving a legal matter in their favor. While reading this, I made parallels in my mind to those practicing elsewhere, perhaps in a free yet unsupportive environment. Perhaps in a home where others are unaware, unsupportive or even hostile. I thought that some of these techniques could be useful to someone in that type of situation. Turns out Connolly already has a document for that. It’s called Hidden: Living With the Uninitiated. I have been unable to score a copy of this one yet, but will report back if I do.

I found a six-pager called “Amazing New Mind Power Secret.” You know how some techniques just seem exhausting from just reading about them? So many dependencies, props, rickety scaffolding in order just to practice a technique? This one isn’t that. This technique is so devastatingly simple that it just might work. Write, draw or otherwise represent your subject, large, on paper — your subject being what you are trying to attract to you. Tape it somewhere you can see it from your bed. Sleep with a flashlight, preferably one that it’s easy to provide a brief flash — the author suggests a plain switch that you can slide on/off quickly, but a number of flashlights now include momentary on/off switches. Set alarms to wake you periodically. When you wake, flash on your paper subject a few times. It’s a low-tech way of injecting subliminal frames into the movie that is your life.

So I mentioned in a previous post that the work of Florence Scovell Shinn was referenced in a quasi-random textfile I happend upon. I ended up picking up an audiobook of her collected works from Libro.FM (yes, that’s an affiliate link). It’s kind of thrown me for a loop. Disrupted me. I was under the belief that so-called “prosperity gospel,” which pretty much seems to preach a link from Christianity to wealth and prosperity, came into being maybe in the 1970s or 1980s. I thought of it as a relatively recent deviation from the traditional spiritual and moral course. But at its core, this is what Florence Scovell Shinn put into the world — way back in 1925 — with her debut work, The Game of Life and How to Play It. In truth, so far the only thing distinguishing this work from modern prosperity gospel is the lack of a direct link for her to profit. I guess the book medium doesn’t lend itself quite so well to the transactional nature of today’s media. Or it was the soft sell to get them to come to her in person. She speaks a lot in her work of people that come to her for “treatment.” I swear, if she’s not the grandmother of both prosperity gospel and even NLP, I don’t know who is. One of her other titles is “Your Word is Your Wand.” She references frequently how your choice of words, your phrasing, can describe your intention and have positive or negative effects on your life, even above your actual intention. One example she provides is how someone who wished they could see better expressed it using a poor choice of words, frequently saying “I wish I could get rid of these glasses,” and then wondered why their glasses kept breaking, etc. She emphasized the importance of choosing your words carefully to reflect your true intent. Instead of just wishing your glasses were gone, choose words that represent the perfect vision you desire. On the prosperity side of things, one of the catchphrases/prayer-like mantras is “Infinite spirit, open the way for my perfect abundance. I am an irresistible magnet for everything that is mine by divine right,” which sounds kind of ego-centered, but I think that’s kind of the point of what she was putting out there. Maybe her works influenced Ayn Rand.

I happened upon a short story that crept in from an unusual angle and raised more questions than answers, while exposing me to new avenues of exploration. The story is called The Diane Arbus Suicide Portfolio, and it was written by Marc Laidlaw, who is known for his work on the Half Life video game series. Whether you have a thing for horror, or a thing for Diane Arbus’ photography (I have both) this story is worth seeking out and consuming. I won’t spoil it for you. Go now.

I hadn’t heard of the Orphic Gold tablets before. Maybe you hadn’t either. Except now you have. The Orphic Gold tablets were gold leaf inscribed with instructions for the afterlife, found since 1879 in graves throughout South Italy, Crete, and Thessaly. Some of them seem to have been rather important instructions. You might do well to read them, especially since you really have no idea just… how soon… the afterlife… will be… https://amzn.to/3ouyqMs

I found, and read “Your Brain on Porn” by Gary Wilson. I get how “porn addiction” is a problem for some people. To be honest, I think the addiction part is the operative word. Take away their porn, and they will find something else to be addicted to. It’s just that it hasn’t really been my experience. That reality that some folks experience where they have to keep escalating their experience, either by viewing more and more explicit imagery, or their addiction is a physical sex addiction, engaging in more and more risky, violent or extreme activities for the same level of stimulation — well, that has never been my reality. For the most part, I am still turned on by the same things that turned me on when I was a teenager. I was just glad this book didn’t piggyback off of the “erototoxins” pseudoscience. It basically described the symptoms mentioned above, and provided some advice to those experiencing those symptoms. Common-sense advice, such as taking a break to reboot your senses.

During a period of morbid curiosity my searches led me to a smattering of text files about pornography. Yes, I said about, not containing. I was intrigued by the titles. There have been people against pornography for as long as there has been pornography, I’m sure. Jealous lovers who consider it a form of infidelity, churchgoing moralists who consider it immoral, and the list goes on. But few gave the movement as much traction as Judith Reisman. She’s dead now. I say that she’s dead not in a real celebratory sense, as the title of this post would imply, but with more of a sense of relief, I guess. I don’t know what crawled up Judith’s anal cavity and died, but she had a hard-on for pornographers for decades. Her name came up while I was trying to untangle a specific screed. This screed was rather typical of the genre in that it not only ranted against pornography but rather consistently blamed the Jews for it. So it was hard to tell, in this particular rant, whether the author was simply anti-semitic and using porn as evidence against the Jews, or anti-porn and the Jews were just convenient scapegoats. I suspect the author was both anti-porn AND anti-semetic. In this particular screed, “erototoxins” came up. “Organized Jewry seems to have no moral scruples about profiting from the sale of pornography. They show no concern about the proven fact that highly addictive and dangerous erototoxins are released into the brain after contact with pornography and can cause progressive brain damage.” This quote was attributed to Lasha Darkmoon, but when I googled erototoxins, Reisman’s name came up. As far as I can tell, erototoxins aren’t really a scientific thing at all. Yep, turns out she made up the word, to attach a negative stigma to the chemical changes in the body caused by sexual arousal. https://www.thereismaninstitute.org/law-articles/2018/7/25/elegant-erototoxins-and-current-science-overwhelming-scientific-evidence Anyhow, this arousal-hating, American Family Association-supporting person died in April of this year. Good riddance, and I think I’m going to rub one out in her honor. God bless the holy erototoxins. Wheeeeee!

I happened upon a copy of Magia Sexualis by Paschal Beverly Randolph (PBR, lol!) in my travels, and I wanted to summarize it here briefly. I really like it when I come across a text that’s devoid of fluff. This one is completely devoid of fluff. It’s only 30 pages long, and goes right into it, after the translator’s (Robert North) preface. And there’s not a whole lot of content here. But what there is, well, it’s concise. It’s right on the money, no nonsense ingredients and instructions. There’s a section on sexual positions relating to “charging of volts” via sexual magick. There’s another section on various types of “fluid condensors” for various magickal purposes. I believe I understand what this section is dancing around, but I will leave that to the individual reader to decipher. Lastly, there is a very interesting section on the care, maintenance and use of magic mirrors which I had not seen before. It contains very clear instructions, and this section alone is worth obtaining this piece of historical work. Get your copy here: https://amzn.to/31MQkCv

I happened upon AMORC Unmasked: The Hidden Mind Control Techniques of the Rosicrucian Order by Pierre S. Freeman in my travels. I read it with zero alarm. Look, every mystic occult group has techniques. Every group has a personality, and every subgroup within a group has a personality as well. I read Freeman’s diatribe with a big fucking yawn, because one of the techniques he went on about was that of self-hypnosis, as if that should raise demonic fear in the reader. Self-hypnosis isn’t always a bad thing. There are lots of useful things you can do with hypnosis, you know this. Anyhow, I read around the net for a while looking for counter-opinions. Even on a blog soliciting opinions on AMORC from two years ago, it’s a good healthy mixed bag of opinions. I’ll quote said blog: https://esoteric-guide.blogspot.com/2019/04/amorc-opinions.html 1)   Cannot criticize the Rosicrucian Order AMORC and the teaching of AMORC and its spiritual leaders (terms use for the officer of AMORC visible and invisible). 2)   Members must not read writing that is critical of AMORC. 3)   Members must voice their opinion against writing that are critical of AMORC. Honestly, if those are actually rules, then they’re asking to be roasted. Further, if a person agrees to those rules, they deserve what they get. Still further, if they agree to those rules and then abide by them, they are opening themselves to ridicule, manipulation, abuse and more. As the blog pointed out, asking someone to voice their opinion on something they aren’t even allowed to read is, well, a silly exercise in authoritarianism. I also looked into AMORC’s origin story. Sounds like most other esoteric societies’ origin stories to me. Seeker travels, receives the light, comes back and turns the light into a beacon, and then into a living. I can’t fault any of these folks for building their little cult empires. We haven’t yet figured out how to do enlightenment for free. In America, anything that’s free is perceived as valueless. We value things often by how much they cost. When choosing between two schools of enlightenment, we might choose the one that’s more expensive because of perceived value — especially if they offer a discount where it’s temporarily (or just for you) cheaper than the normally less expensive option. We’re weird that way. We like to feel like we’re getting a deal.

I state frequently in this archive that I hold no oaths or obligations regarding any information I discover and discuss here. I came across a “Study Curriculum for Entered Apprentice” document, and so far it has led to more questions than answers. First of all, pansophic freemasonry states that it is completely separate from traditional freemasonry, therefore it’s already irregular. It allows women, which is one primary difference. But it also seems to focus much more intently on the esoteric side of things, from what I’ve seen so far. It seems to be affiliated with Lewis Keizer, apparently a Bishop of several lineages, who seems to have his own school of thought relating to the “recovered teachings of Yeshua” and the lineage of Jesus’ brother James. I’m putting this on my radar for further followup, because none of Keizer’s books are available in my usual pool of random freebookery. Meanwhile, here are some links: http://www.hometemple.org/PANSOPHIC.htm https://www.encyclopedia.com/science/encyclopedias-almanacs-transcripts-and-maps/temple-holy-grail-thg Here’s a chart of paths to pansophic paths:

When I first started working with rituals, I realized I had a mental block or something preventing me from, or creating difficulties with, visualizing internally. At this point, I think had just spent too much of my life in a “scientific/objective” mindset. There were moments, especially in and around sleep, where I could close my eyes and allow shapes to form in the formless whirls of darkness, but it was very much untrained, undisciplined and frankly, lazy. I got the sense from my reading that I should be able to do better. So I searched in the normal places people search for information, and found a few interesting things: Magickal Visualization Training – Work Shop – Part One to Five, copyright 2000 by The Church of the Hermetic Sciences, Inc. A very short (four pages) tutorial which includes specific exercises to improve focus and stamina for visualization. It’s not a skill that most people use or cultivate as adults, so it needs to be trained and exercised. Additionally, it gave additional references (texts to pair with the exercises) which I was also able to find in my travels: Initiation into Hermetics, Franz Bardon Magical Ritual Methods, William G. Gray Fundamentals of Yoga, Rammurti Mishra Raja Yoga, Ramacharaka Self Hypnotism: Its Technique & Use in Daily Living, Le Cron. This is quite a respected book on the topic, but quite a bit dated at over 50 years old, and contains some truly outlandish and easily disproven claims — that asthma, for example, is the result of a suppressed childhood cry, and that further, asthmatics cannot cry. There’s still some valuable info contained within, but it’s difficult to take it seriously as a whole with such claims. The Book of Solomon’s Magick, Carroll “Poke” Runyon Magick and Hypnosis, Carrol “Poke” Runyon: This one was a game-changer for me. As a lifelong skeptic, I struggled for a while with “why am I doing this when it’s clearly made up?” This piece helped me to understand that it’s not supposed to be about believing at face value. I knew this from my Crowley studies, but this took it a step further, explaining that what was lost in the Victorian era, when “objective” experimental study took over, was the trance/hypnosis aspect of the rituals, which is critical to the internal reprogramming which is real core of ritual work. Find it. Read it. Tell me I’m wrong. Creative Visualization for Dummies This information takes time to digest, and the exercises take time to either take effect or not. At some point, I hope to follow up here on what helps (to improve visualization skills) and what doesn’t.

The goal of this site is to simply explore. I am exploring the wealth of information buried in the dark corners of the Internet and beyond. As I learn about things, I’ll share them here. I have sworn no oaths which will be violated here — the advantage of being completely unaffiliated, simply a solitary explorer scavenging across the wires, is that i hold no loyalty or allegiance to any of the entities about which I may write. If there appears to be an esoteric or occult bent to the things I’m exploring, there’s a reason for that — I’m out here in the weeds trying to make sense of it all. I’ll be talking about my impressions of various schools of thought, orders, authors and other personalities in no particular order. Writing about it helps me to process the intake. What happens when a human processes intake? Two things. It nourishes the human, and it creates shit. I will try to balance the two here, as well as I can. Sometimes it’s hard.