An outsider's exploration
This advice runs counter to most of the self-help things out there, but hear me out. All joy does is ruin everything that is less than joy. By removing everything that brings you joy, you are recalibrating your ability to experience joy on your own.
I’ve come across several references in the past few days on how some occult texts were deliberately obfuscated (duh!) by changing the texts to make them refer to blood sacrifices and murder to make them seem MORE (socially acceptable? Palatable?) than the sex acts and fluids they actually meant to refer to, because writing about such “immoral” topics back then could lead to serious social and legal problems. And of course, the true initiates recognizes this because they’ve been “initiated.” To this day very few texts refer specifically and explicitly to the sex acts and fluids involved in certain rituals. It’s Heroic Alterity all over again, where in that text everything is a veiled allegory for autofellatio. It’s as if semen is considered such a powerful and magical substance that consuming it is at the top of the occult to-do list. I’d love to find some direct, unobfuscated texts that go into that topic in detail. Is it only your OWN semen? Is there power in consuming others’ semen? What about planting it unbeknownst to the person doing the consuming? I’m sure some occultist has put down some theories on this. A quick google leads to some jizz science, how the roots of jizz worship lie in the the alchemical search for phosphorus: https://gnosticwarrior.com/magic-fire-semen.html And then there’s Glenn Scheper’s classic work on the cloaking of autofellatio references through the ages. You might find it by searching for “Heroic Alterity.” I never thought I’d see the day where Scheper’s work, which I discovered in the early 2000s, was debated amongst “internet scholars.” https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talk:Autofellatio/Archive_4 As mentioned previously in my Magia Sexualis post, there ARE some documents out there with oddly specific recipes and instructions.
The sad truth is that most occult books are 93% fluff. They start by telling you why you need what they’re selling you, then they maybe give some examples of how it’ll work, and then if you’re lucky, they give you concrete info on how to make it happen. This one, by Damon Brand, is no real exception. I think I was 50 “pages” in before I got anything useful, but to be fair, this book was formatted for an e-reader, so the pages are SMOL. First, it basically says to visualize lightning as the connecting medium when summoning. This makes sense. Lightning is very powerful, and it’s an easy thing to visualize. Then it declares itself to be kind of piggybacking off of, and correcting, The Miracle of New Avatar Power by Geof Gray-Cobb. Typical Hebrew “corrections.” Arzel is a shortcut to Raziel, Ankar is Nah-Kar, etc. Gives a few very simple rituals to perform. Importantly, it claims there is no karmic backlash. Then specific guidelines on constructing the requests, which is important. State your main intent, what you wish to manifest, how it will make you feel, a synopsis of the problem, and how you will cooperate (the promise). Ooh, then there’s a nice aspect, a positive surprising plot twist. He goes on after describing the ritual, and adds that it’s also good to share the results of your requests. I braced myself for the occult gofundme equivalent, but no, he also means to share the magickal power itself, to work that request into the closing seal, to share the power with so-and-so, or “whoever needs it most.” Weirdly, he puts the “how to use this book” section AFTER describing the ritual. So I might have just read/skimmed the meat of the book. He says to begin the working on a Thursday and continue it for eleven days. Oddly specific. Yep. It goes into a final detailed summary of the Master Ritual, then the entire rest of the book is a dictionary of the angels you’ll be working with. Quite a handy little book, if working with angels works for you.